a year and a half. it's almost impossible to be true. in fact, i don't believe its true.i believed it was true last time. a year and a half ago. i believed it was very true. but now i don't think i do. i think its just the missing of something that used to be true. but i just did something really daring last night. something i can't believe i did,and the thought of it makes me cringe. but what's done cannot be undone. i hope it works out. i took me a bloody lot of courage..and that came from someone who "has no balls" as sem would say. i don't know.i hope it works out. i hope it bloody works out. *prays very hard*

if you don't know what i'm talking about, good.nobody knows this.or nobody is supposed to bloody know.whatever.

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